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The Spiritualizer

by Thomas Abban

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1.
My crew is loyal, they prove it so, they are steadfast beyond compare Searching faces for relief, higher-borns cry in despair Vicious crooning soothing wombing plays the pipes of pan Jesus saves, I know it's true, but I'm going to meet the man The Pharaohs they all know me well and they baptize me in the Nile I found a box fixed on its bed and I tried to free it for a while But tepid water daughters caught us and threw us in the van All must end, I know it's true but I'm going to meet the man Pearl and fog were at my door as I awoke from fevered dreams Crimson hands clasped 'round my neck as I read aloud names carved in beams Hereupon I heard the maid singing what I sought is in Bhutan Truth is mute, I know this well, but I'm going to meet the man If I indeed should leave this ship just for some bread and for some wine What's the cost? What will be lost? I take my failure as a sign Sacred Brooklyn cooked in urine flies into the fan He's standing still, I know it's true, but I'm going to meet the man I crossed the mighty Boa wide, though I was pressing all my luck Unpremeditated words came as numbers as I felt my lips get stuck Venerated fated hated secrets of the klan The night is white, I know it's true, but I'm going to meet the man There again I'm tired out just 3 miles from Alabaster The dying soldier learns to breath, a skill I one-day hope to master Panting shudders stutters structures one mile from Sudan The scene is young, I know it's true, but I'm going to meet the man Eating scrolls on ocean islands that are littered with my bones Transposing thoughts into words and then back in my head with vibrant tones Son of none, undone by some, attempts to heal the plan I 'ain't seen him once, but I know it's true 'cause I'm going to meet the man I set my course just like night takes it's throne sitting and adored Where rivers meet and kiss my feet, the land where I first stepped on board Timing writhing crying shining flashing in the pan I can't go back, I know it's true, I'm going to meet the man
2.
To U 02:16
How many books of the dead are written by the living? Bleed he blood black as night? Then he needs no forgiving The Beast is barren but rears all she gets When I was a boy the angels drew patterns on my chest Palms are sweaty, knees are weak I hear the call of deep to deep My anger seems to much to keep My answer's looping on repeat On oceaned glass that empty seat Surrender's still the best defeat Amen It's all coming back to you Oh what a wonderful world, alone in space it shudders She got something I don't, love for myself and others If my silence made a fool of you, then just imagine what my words will do I hear the call of deep to deep My anger seems to much to keep My answer's looping on repeat On oceaned glass that empty seat Surrender's still the best defeat Amen It's all coming back to you
3.
The Cure 04:09
Dark room and the frame's askew I've got more points than a point of view I've been up all night painting pictures of you And I got overwhelmed Made three changes and that's a lot I hear the steam rise from the coffee pot Said more goodbyes than forget-me-not's And I got overwhelmed Seeking all night for the cure, Bombay and Rum In the morning when get home If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving Seeking all night for the cure, want to get some When I see you in the morning If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving Change Behind the curtain I see objects glow I rush home to tell you things just before you go I guess I'm more Cassandra than Apollo And I got overwhelmed Hear every light bulb hum and hiss See many colors in the sound of bliss But when I felt the space in-between our kiss I got overwhelmed Seeking all night for the cure, Bombay and Rum In the morning when get home If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving Wondering just how wise, how clever? 'Cause my shoulders are emptier than ever If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving Chain Overwhelmed Seeking all night for it I get mine, she gets hers, we get ours, she gets worse Seeking all night for the cure, Bombay and Rum In the morning when get home If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving on Seeking all night for the cure want to get some In the morning when get home If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving on Wondering just how wise, how clever? 'Cause my shoulders are emptier than ever If it's alright with you then I'll just keep moving Hey Change
4.
Hello my love, it's me, Black Dove White horses line twelve at a time There goes my little hymn balloon Feel good, feel strong, feel pure My enemy's obscure I am the man for sure so Tell me you need me Tell me you care And I'll be there Get struck or you won't get up You gotta tease that stuff or you'll never get up You want it? String pluck for that old set up You gotta please this tough myth man mysterious You know it Hello my girl, it's me Cinnamon Swirl When I come to stop upon my rock There goes my little hymn balloon Feel good, feel strong, feel pure My pride is so demure I am the man unsure so Tell me you need me Tell me you care It's only fair Get struck or you won't get up You gotta tease that stuff or you'll never get up You want it? String pluck for that old set up You gotta please this tough myth man mysterious Tell me you need me There goes my Tell me you care And I'll be there Tell me And I'll be there Need me There goes my little hymn balloon And I'll be there And I'll be there Feel good, feel strong, feel pure
5.
Storm over the harbor, omen goes unnoticed I chose the hard life and to travel the wine dark seas And I know that my mentor has her own agenda And who it is that sent her and who's she trying to please? In the heart of the Mississippi there lies a sunken city Where Seraphim and Nephilim make the daughters of men feel pretty Fever's in the cabin and the walls are always listening There's a meal they're still stabbing and the silver knives are glistening And I know that my mentor has her own agenda And who it is that sent her and who's she trying to please? In the darkest cave it's slippy with oil and water gritty See the winged white goons singing freaky tunes That make the daughters of men feel giddy The tides are intelligent creatures and are often disregarded While your hung up on features, with my sixth life I've just departed The stable's rotted out and the stallions run about Now loose lips and phantom ships make the daughters of men feel doubt And I know that my mentor has her own agenda And who it is that sent her And who's she trying to please? Who's she trying to please? Who is she? I feel free. Who's she trying to please?
6.
100 Balloons 02:33
Morning cartoons, see a hundred balloons float to heaven I hope I get to heaven before you ever notice I'm gone We just sit here. Oh how can you just sit there? I just sit here waiting for you to notice I've slipped and I'm gone like balloons T.V it calls you A hundred balloons Spirit in the sky, when I fly I will be like an angel Did I speak too soon? Or will I be just another floating balloon in the sky?
7.
Hallelujah 05:06
Venus can't reveal to me what she can with just a glance Vanity is a hollow dragon slayed in a teen romance The prince loses all he has and leaves to the eastern plane I get more than I give, so why then should I complain? But in the quiet, but in the quiet Hallelujah, Hallelujah Sweet myth, sweet virgin damsel, just begun and always calm She was re-born a thousand times before he even left the farm And he's just Jupiter re-named, re-branded, stuck in a violent change I wish I could be more honest, but what's the point in switching lanes? But in the quiet Hallelujah, Hallelujah They say that we are in-fact alone without any care, any love at all Are we just the anti-world on the other side far from any call? And Mars fights a lonely battle and I fight the common place Move quick and you'll find more of you It seems cruel to call life a race Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah You could never understand me and I could never read your palm I live in some prior future so forgive me if I ever caused you harm But in the quiet, in the quiet Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah
8.
Brand New! 04:00
I'm just a ship that's passing in the night in another way There's a monster living in the deep the sailors say And I think I think that I think I thought that I think too much Ever catch yourself thinking thoughts that are out of touch? And it's all brand new Mirror painting on the wall Rusty nail about to fall It's primitive and very small You banged the hole, now hear God call In the upper rooms past the upper halls On the mezzanine and the white horse stall Your echelons and your excellence The feasts you feed spare no expense You turned away all those who seek You prayed your prayer but don't let God speak You sacrifice eight days a week From humble beginnings to the bed of a sheik Entombed in crystal entombed in ice Spit wheels of fire, the deny it thrice I see love just like two wheels encased in a globe of crystal, it feels Like Heaven to hold, like Heaven to touch Like Hell to burn but not Hell as such Hell has it's turn, Hell knows as much So lean upon your rotten crutch Leaves death's key at the foot of my door Under my wicker mat that says "follow the law" And if you do and if you don't Won't mean a thing even if you're lonesome And destitute and a wretch Enthroned upon a coincidence A bad-luck scepter your recompense A crown of doubt upon your heads Who cares to judge? Who cares to shout? Let he who presumes be he who's without Slay Humbaba in the final bout Cut off his head and then close his mouth Traverse the universe and beyond Sell maps for a dollar- get hanged for cons Then they'll forget that you didn't belong Now they're quoting me and even speaking my songs As if they are the finest speech So now I'm gone, to each his each But I'll be back to judge you all On the deck of my black ship I'll stand tall With writing up and down my arms And secret names written on my palms I'll burn the house and I'll burn the barn I come to kill, I come to harm I'm just a ship that's passing in the night in another way There's a monster living in the deep the sailors say And I think I think that I think I thought that I think too much Ever catch yourself thinking thoughts that are out of touch? And it's all brand new Shackle, shackle, burning bright Be far from me this cursed night Feet will fail as wings fail their flight And every soul broken and contrite Will sing in sorrow, march in line One hundred miles past their broken shrine Whose face is wet with turpentine Existing is it's every crime The executioner's blade is sharp Zen pool ripples by the carp The Judge's mind is also sharp Cosmic scales played on the harp By the boy born upside-down See his smile made by his frown Deep within a well the mothers pains begin Like a warehouse weapon she can never win Dull broke dome spilled cranium They lied to you dear sapien Homo-superior is fixed to die Feel's the joke within it's eye Walks a road past heavenly hosts Working nine to five making heavenly notes To spend on hearing heavenly jokes And taking breaks for heavenly smokes They churn out souls and edit out grief Escorting souls right past the feast In the upper rooms past the upper halls On the balcony they eat the coming dawns On the floor fake shards of glass Lights change their form as their casing cracks And canvas torn never lasts Always wonders and never asks Always scared and never acts Always hopes and never backs Always guess and never facts Always more and never lacks Always proud but never plaques Always mansions never shacks Always strikes never reacts And a canvas torn shall never last I know, I know I'm just a ship that's passing in the night in another way There's a monster living in the deep the sailors say And I think I think that I think I thought that I think too much Ever catch yourself thinking thoughts that are out of touch? And it's all brand new And it's all brand new
9.
High Moon 03:54
By night I try to live and by day I try to sleep In death I try to smile and in joy I try to weep In your mind are ancient halls I've loved you through them all And your spirit's wild and dark Baby it's a high moon But I'll take you to a higher plane High moon Kiss the light and I'll make you shine as bright as I do Welcome to the higher plane By life I try to live and by 'live' I mean I try In time I try to change and in change I find the time In your mind are ancient walls and I've written upon them all And your spirit's dark and wild Baby it's a high moon But I'll take you to a higher plane High moon Kiss the light and I'll make you shine as bright as I do Welcome to the higher plane The moon in a mirror Shine so bright see your enemies in the dark Baby it's a high moon But I'll take you to a higher plane High moon Kiss the light Shine as bright as I do Welcome to the higher plane The moon in a mirror
10.
The One 04:03
When did you stop loving me? And how can you not care? Desire taking over me, but you seem hardly there I wait and find the moment never comes To be the one who will belong to you no matter To be the one who will be strong for you when you shatter Moons are made for melodies and suns are made to share Blooms commit their felonies and clouds pretend to dare I look and find that nature has no sons To be the ones that will belong to you no matter To be the ones that will be strong for you when you shatter Taking all that time to build a bridge to something beautiful But then you get there and it's gone Taking all that time to build a bridge to something beautiful But then Where do storms themselves begin, and can I travel there? Why do forms play violins with strings made from my hair I use the swell and rolls of distant drums To be the one who will belong to you no matter Yes I'll be that one who who will be strong for you when you shatter Waiting all night two fists in the sky Shooting hopes down and watching them die Hang around here with blood in my eye She 'aint the kind of high you get to retry Yes I'll be the one who will belong to you no matter I'll be the one that will be strong for you when you shatter Taking all that time to build a bridge to something beautiful But then you get there and it's gone
11.
Image 04:32
On north third street there is a place we used to live and have more grace My head is old but my heart is young and if that could change then I'd have it done I hurt myself, I'm too uptight, you think I don't feel, but that's alright 'Cause I'm a man and they don't cry, but like a boy I run and hide And like a girl I sympathize, but with myself, that's my woman's pride Every time that I've been on my own I feel love's absence has made me more ingrown Are you ok with who I am and how I am? Find an image of me you like if you can Brass woman kneel over lamps of gold while masks are picked and then later sold I only grow things that keep me hid and wish on things that have a lid I'm missing showers and I'm missing you I am green never mind blue 'Cause I'm from mars like we all are You hear it often I the streets and bars Every time that I've been on my own I feel love's absence has made me more ingrown Are you ok with who I am and how I am? Find an image of me you like if you can Every time that I've been on my own I feel love's absence has made me more ingrown Are you ok with who I am and how I am? Find an image of me you like if you can Find an image of me you like if you can Amen
12.
Baby now, I did enough, getting wise on another plane I sympathize, I really do, get a ring and get another, don't say "what?" People say things Stranded on your ocean Loosing all control Sipping on your potion Feel it sinking down in my soul Someone like me needs someone like you Someone like me needs someone like you to see me through Baby now, getting wild, get your bait, I've got a new taste, monsters I've been without, I really have, ever never known a man with his own wave? I'm dropping mysteries Prosecuting my memories for leaving fear in me, no Grab the rope 'cause I'm loose again and it's keeping me free Someone like me needs someone like you Someone like me needs someone like you to see me through Do you want to die? Someone like me looking back the path where I have come Do you think of my and miss my company? Someone like me needs someone like you Someone like me needs someone like you to see me through I just Can't Someone like me needs someone like you Someone like me needs someone like you Someone like me needs someone like you to see me through Do you want to die? Baby, it's such a mystery Baby now
13.
Last Ship 03:57
What will you do when the sky above won't bleed for you? It's over and done, over and done, it's over and done And what will you do when the sun on high won't bow to you? It's over and done, over and done, it's over and done On the last ship back home When the last ship has flown On the last ship back home On the last ship back home When the last seed is sown I'm on the last ship back home I don't want to die What will you do when the moon my love won't cry for you It's over and done, over and done, it's over and done On the last ship back home When the last ship has flown Last ship back home On the last ship back home When the last seed is sown I'm on the last ship back home I don't want to die I don't want tp die On the last ship, on the last ship, on the last ship Last ship, last ship, last ship, what will you do?
14.
Here we stand in our broken rage and with our subtle age difference My melody ruined or harmony so now she's loving different And I'm so far from your shore And I'm losing every battle and every war So this my surrender song, it's where I belong, it's where I belong I've seen your world just like a drop of rain and it will fall back again upon you You see, we're all adrift so when you feel something shift You've got to treasure it through and through So this my surrender song, it's where I belong , it's where I belong Deep calls to deep with strong voices singing along their surrender song And who can stand? Who can Stand? No, not I, no not I Who can stand? Who can Stand? No, not I, no not I So this my surrender song, it's where I belong , it's where I belong I surrender, yes, I surrender It's where I belong, it's where I belong Deep calls to deep with strong voices singing along their surrender song Save me
15.
Every Road 05:42
Said goodbye to the woman I love And headed out west to Babylon Where I hoped to find the answer and to kill the waves in me But I found out pretty quick that water don't bleed I see black bodies burning, see black bodies killed Devoured by a beast that's never filled Then they gather up what's left and they scatter it around I see a crop of black shoots coming up from the ground I see a crop of black shoots coming up from the ground And what am I to do when every road leads back to you? I made it past all the sirens, left them crying out loud Left them sitting on the islands, wonder where they are now? There's a crack in my road and it's three years wide If you make heroes out of men you'll get the whole world on your side If you make heroes out of men you'll get the whole world on your side Of all the flowers that failed to grow Yours is the one I still put on show Now they're saying I'm decorative, gon' rock to this, I'm deplorably evocative So right it is the night for this, obsessive clean the mouth I kiss Prone to fits, I feed the hiss, a mask to show the bliss I miss Black calls to hit, black seems to stick, against the wall my blood is thick Got the feeling in my bones that I'm leaving here soon Could be next year could be this afternoon Baby, your name is a cure that's plaguing my heart I take the view of the steed, I'd rather be behind the cart I take the view of the steed, I'd rather be behind the cart I lost my way and the stars refused to show So I wrote it on a wall in a town called Jericho My way was through the water and my path was through the sky I've waited for you in that place where the half-god's go to die I waited for you in that place where the half-god's go to die And what am I to do when every road leads back to you? When every road leads back to you? Yes, I know I chose the hard life But there's a wave that just won't die And it breaks so high Amen, our end, amen

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With Everything I did and with everything happening how it did, where it did, and with all those involved who did it, this work seemed like the only thing to do.. There’s not much I can say about this album other than it’s been with me in one form or another for a long while,- the rest it can say itself and much better- like intersecting lines and concepts, monoliths and miniatures, Sirens and sailors, pathways through the water filled skies and all the words between amen.
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released February 2, 2022

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